What a way to end the New Year

So even after counseling and getting to a place of what I thought was happiness all the talks about changing and wanting to do better by myself and our children showed to be lies. last night I found out that my husband has been back in contact with the same young lady (also married) that he cheated on me with 2yrs ago. (Talking on the phone, sending nudes and God knows what else) I had been having this strange feeling for about a few weeks now and I didn’t know why but it all came out last night. I am currently 9mos pregnant and expecting our 3 child any day now. I know the smart thing would have been to wait until i was in a good financial position to leave but I let my emotions get the best of me and just started to pack my things. Funny thing is he helped me put them in the car and drove the kids and I to my sisters house. (we only have one car and he grabbed the keys before I could) house at 2am. No words or anything. That alone spoke volumes to me!! I am currently at my best friends home who had an extra bedroom no money just the clothes and food that I took with us. I’m so numb. The only thing on my mind is my children I can’t even allow myself to cry or scream or anything. I’m a firm believer in Christ and I know for a fact that everything will be okay in the end It’s just hard to see it at this moment. I keep telling myself that this is a sign. Please keep me lifted up.