I think I'm going to be a single mother.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I know I have the support from my friends and family. But with the father not being there I know it will be tough I grew up with out a father myself but it like every time I try to even talk to my boyfriend there's always something going on... I haven't talked or seen him in over 3 weeks.. All we do is text he never answers his phone. He seemed excited when I first found out we were pregnant went to the first appointment which was not but talking about dos and donts. And he missed the first ultrasound last week I wanted him to go so bad.. I reminded him all day he had even said he was on his way said he was 15 minutes away and then I didn't hear anything else from him till the next day.. He said his car broke or something and the he ended up in another state 6 hours away because he was contemplating ending life. I've never seen this side of him before.. He wanted to have a baby he always said even before I was pregnant.. I don't know if it's a sick cruel joke to him or something but I don't know what to do I'm so scared. I'm 9w1 today with my first and I'm 21. Hopefully he'll come around.