last night I drove to the middle of nowhere to go to a “party” that ended up being three other people just watching tv. One girl was so stoned she fell asleep whenever she sat down. I felt bad leaving it but I really didn’t wanna watch Broad City mid season.

I ended up going to my brothers house and he, his wife, and I ended up having a nice time. I’m really grateful they invited me over and saved me from going home all alone on New Years.

Last year I was in another country celebrating New Years with my now ex. I miss being able to just take a train and go wherever. Not having to worry about drunk drivers. Being in a safe country. And I just miss traveling. I live in such a small town and I hate it so much. I want to go out and do fun things but none of my friends like to be social. I just feel stuck.