More scared then excited.

Today I took two tests after my mom bring shopping. Both came back a clear positive. Last month I found out on thanksgiving I was pregnant and by the 30th I had lost it. This is my second miscarriage. My first I lost at 10weeks and my rainbow baby came the

following month. I praying this is my second rainbow but I’m still scared. I told my husband but he and I aren’t getting any hope up until we see a doctor and not telling anyone.

Is it normal to pretend it’s not real? I’m just scared.