FRUSTRATED! Need to vent it out.

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I’ve been with my significant other for 10 years. High school sweet hearts. He was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia at 16. This is a different schizophrenia not the not being able to talk etc. basically when he relapses he thinks everyone is out to get him, and he hears voices. He’s not abusive physically but he can be mentally during a relapse. It can last for a month and then like the flip of a switch I got him back. It’s a mental disease and I go through it because I love him and know the person he can be when not in a relapse. But when he relapses. He relies on beer which flushes the medication (Haldol,Prozac) straight out of his system prolonging the relapse. It’s heartbreaking because when he’s in a relapse I hate him but love him. I know one day I’ll have enough and leave and I hate it because he is a great guy when not relapsing. My life just sucks and I need to vent to you ladies. Any opinions would be great.