Molested throughout Elementary school

I am not a very open person about my past but I figured that I need to be more open so I can heal. So I guess here goes.....When I was in elementary school I was molested, it lasted about 5 years. The man who hurt me was the husband of the lady who would drive me to school. When she couldn't come get us or he came home from work early he would touch me and try and kiss me. I didn't know what was going on at all, and the only thing I knew was that I didn't like seeing him. I hated when he came near me and that I didn't know what to do. I remember him trying to put his hands up my skirt and him kissing my hand and almost chasing me around the dinning room table so he can rub his penis against my back. I have tried for so long to forget that my memory fails me to remember it all. I have hated myself for so long wishing I had said something or done something. I seeked affection from other people growing up as a way to feel loved. I fooled around with a ton of guys and even got involved with a few girls. I just wanted to feel loved. I recently told my parents about the abuse about 3 years ago with the help of some people from my church. I didn't want to go after the man who hurt me because honestly I don't want to see that man ever again in my life. I recently got married and I can see how sometimes it is just hard for me to be open emotionally with him. I can be physical but it's showing my pain that I have a hard time with. I want to be able to tell him I'm depressed and need help but it's hard. He is amazing and I love him with all my heart and I know that when I tell him about my past he doesn't know how to comfort me but he is dying to help. Is there anything I can do to help all this pain go away. I hate feeling the weight of my past all the time.