I want you to know that I love you and miss you dearly. No, you’re not dead. I wish I could see you and talk to you so bad. I promise as soon as I turn 18 things will be different. I forgive you for all of the things you did in the past that caused you not to see me anymore. I know you love me. I know you’re a better person now. I love you momma. You have no idea how much I long to see you. See you soon momma. 1 year and about three months.