I hate breastfeeding
So with my first son, BF was a clusterfuck - poor latch, milk not coming in and the poor boy starving.
Baby boy #2 comes along with an unmediated birth and takes to the breast well - great latch and milk on day 3.
Nipples are killing, and I have extreme mom guilt because I feel like I barely see my three year old. I am sleeping in because I was up every hour nursing, or I am upstairs feeding him.
Today his weight was too low and he is jaundiced. Sigh. I had to give him one bottle of formula tonight. He polished off almost 4 oz and is the calmest he has been.
In the end I might say fuck the sore nipples, the cluster feeds, covering my boobs in public, guck feeling like I have no time for my other son.
Kudos to those who love it and those who make it look easy - hats off to you.
I would rather birth another baby than breastfeed 😂
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