Hello! I’m wondering everyone’s thoughts about GoFundMe accounts.

I would like to start a GoFundMe account for my college tuition. The college I want to go to is actually not in the US (more about that later). I see people making GoFundMe accounts for tuition but I feel bad about it if it were me because I feel like usually people use it for serious things. My situation is serious to me, but not a thing the whole world could agree is serious. I’m not one to ask people for money, so to put it out there for anyone to see feels.. 😳. That is the only way to describe it! I do want to do this and I’m getting support to try it out but.. 😳! It’s a mixture of pre-guilt and the fact it’s so weird for me to put myself in the open like that. Even writing this out, I’m aware I have to push to publish it and I’m already like 😖. I’ve been sitting here thinking, “What would I even write if I created one?”. I’m getting told I should try it and that my dad would even be willing to give his artwork to people willing to donate $500+. I’d honestly just hope for someone to donate $10! 😂 I can’t imagine anyone donating more than that.

It says it’s one of the uses but I don’t knowww.

The amount of money for 1 semester is a lot but if it was split up, I think it’s possible. To me, anything over $1.50 is expensive. 😂 So if it’s anything above that, it needs to be worth it. I do think this is worth it. That’s what’s making this even more of a struggle. 

Let me explain now..

There’s no way to long story short this. So brace yourselves! I’m already nervous. 😂😅

Where do I start…

I’m getting a divorce. 

The end.

Okay, no. I wish..but no. 😐

My husband was deported from America in 2014 and we’ve been married for 3 years since. I’ve been traveling back and forth between his country and mine. Anytime I came back to America (his demand), I would get a job just to pay for my ticket back. I never had a chance to save money and anytime I finally had some.. 😑 it would be taken and used for bad things no matter how much I begged him to stop. I was hoping to get him back to America but I realized he wouldn’t change. At first, he acted like he would but it never stuck. Anyway, I’m not here to speak badly about him. I’m just glad I removed myself from the situation.

It’s not time for that anymore.. it’s time that I focus on getting my life back together. The final time I returned to America, I did not have money for an apartment. I have no credit to take out loans (haven’t been around here long enough to establish that). When I’ve tried to get a credit card, I’ve been denied.. for not having credit! I was left with nothing. Now I’m hoping to get a bachelors degree in Social Science while I work there but I just feel like I’m stuck in a circle. I had to leave my home state (Michigan) to go to Cali just for a place to stay and it’s actually a very nasty place (environment and people). It’s like an episode of Hoarders (Dirty, left out food and all!). I’m trying to leave here and get to Australia bc I can get a visa (Work and Holiday) that guarantees me a place to stay for a year (with my best friend) and I can work easily. I can’t even do that right now bc I don’t have $360 USD for the app fee or money for a plane ticket. I’ve already gotten $70/$1,460 USD (fee+plane ticket)(based on Cheapoair) That’s not a lot but it’s the last money I have. If I could go to Australia, I’m confident I could earn the 1st semester tuition eventually (in a safe environment). My goal is to earn $5,433 USD (app fee $199 USD & $5,233 USD) (based on current conversion rate). Then apply for college around Jan 2019. But feel hopeless. The only thing holding me back from the best success in my life and peace is an application fee and a plane ticket. 😐 My short term goal is to at least get the Work and Holiday Visa for Australia and the plane ticket. My long term goal is to get a Student Visa to Denmark and eventually permanent residency when I become eligible. 🎉 The requirements for the student visa is to be accepted into an approved university, show proof that I was accepted and prove that I paid the tuition. Then I apply with (another 🙄) application fee of $342 USD and wait to be approved. 🎉 I won’t pretend I’m not excited in advance. 😂 Finally I will be able to be free and not have to answer to my husband. I can finally pee without having to be on a skype video call! 🎉 🙌🏼🎉🙌🏼 But now I’m being held back by this.. I feel like a fish going against the current but instead of going upstream to die, I’m going upstream to live my life! I could go on and on but I think I’ve said enough. 😂 I’ve had to burn bridges so it’s nice to find people who can show support even from around the world. I appreciate that so much!

I was hoping to get out of these people’s house this month and go to Australia but the goal savings was double what it says since it was so soon.