365 days ago

i was sexually assaulted at 18 by a 20 year old boy who was pretty much a stranger to me, and this happened one year ago today (5 January). since it happened, i have had no contact with him. i told nobody what really happened, until this past September. that was when i realized what i had experienced actually was sexual assault. i was too shocked to admit it at the time it happened, i ignored it because i wanted it to go away. when this realization came down on me, i felt absolutely terrified and overwhelmed. i told my boyfriend, who ive been with for almost a year, what had happened that day. im so lucky to have a guy like him in my life now. he is so comforting, and i feel so safe and protected in his arms. he understands when i tell him that i’m not “in the mood” instead of getting angry with me. at times i’ll feel disgusted with my body and even the thought of anything sexual.

while this incident still haunts me at times, i’m offering my story to other women here to show that things will actually get better, and i know from personal experience. don’t be afraid to tell somebody you can trust. be strong ❤️