Am I Wrong ?

Mary

Me And S/O were best-friends for 4 years before we got together Aug.8.2018 Will Make 5 Years We’ve Been Together 8 Years All In All . June 2014 I Found Out I Had A Miscarriage ... I Just Graduate High School It Really Didn’t Effect Me Bad. We Talked About Having Kids And How We Couldn’t Wait ..We Made Names We Always Talked About What It Would Be Like So I Was Under The Impression He Wanted Children . So In September 2015 I Found Out I Was Pregnant and I Told My S/O And His Reaction Was Not What I Expected. He WAS NOT HAPPY He Didn’t Talk To Me For 3-4 Days And I Started Cramping Really Bad And I Knew EXACTLY What It Was So I Set An Apt And Told Me I Was Having A Miscarriage Me And My S/O Got Into An Argument While We Were At The Dr Office And He Yolked Me Up (Grabbed Me By My Shirt Because He Was Mad ) So After The Appointment We Got Into The Car And He Said To Me “I Guess Its Not Meant For Us To Have Kids “ So With That Being Said I Told Him Not To Finish Inside Of Me Anymore Until We Were Ready So Here We Are 2 Years Later And Im Not Saying I Want Kids I Just Want Him To Start Finishing Off In Me Again And He Just Will Not Do It..No Consideration Or Anything I Tried To Stay On Top He Even Pushed Me Off..FORTUNATELY..He Did it 2 Times Dec 28 But I Doubt Im Pregnant From That. It Took At Least 5 Months For Me To Get Pregnant The First 2 Times. He Knows How I Feel I Express It All The Time And He Always Gets Angry By It .Am I Wrong For Wanting Him To Finish Off In Me Again ???