I have chronic depression and anxiety and some ptsd (from an abused by ex boyfriend) a lot of the time my family calls me me mental or stupid. I’ve been really wanting a baby. Me and my boyfriend have talked about trying to have a baby, but nothing was set in stone. I was having some symptoms of being pregnant. Which was crazy because I had my iud in. But I took a pregnancy test at home it was positive. So then when Tuesday came along I went to the health department to get it confirmed. It came back negative. I was crushed. Of course this affected my chronic depression. I was so hurt still am. I don’t understand why I got one positive pregnancy test then two days later get a negative pregnancy test. I’m really thinking I shouldn’t be a mommy at all because I won’t be good enough. I’m apparently a mental case so messed up. I don’t want my child to have to go through that. I really wished my family understood. I feel so crazy. I honestly feel like a nut case. I don’t know what to do. I usually don’t talk to anyone. I bottle up everything, until one little thing makes me explode because I have so much things bottled up. But I don’t feel comfortable enough to go to my family because they called me a nut case a mental case stupid crazy. Being a mom is one of the things I want to be most. But how my family makes me feel I feel like my child would be better off without a mom like me that’s mental a nut case stupid and crazy! 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔