I just had my third baby on the 2nd and it was the worse pain I have ever experienced in my life. The pitocin was over the limit and not even working at all. They found I had another bag... once they broke that then the pitocin kicked in all at once. It was so unbearable that I was shaking from the pain and trying so hard not to scream my head off. I was against epidurals, but told them I needed it. Waiting for them to get to my room was the longest wait of my life.... like longer than waiting those 9 months for him to get here. Then pushing him out was also so bad because he’s bigger then the rest of my kids. I thought he was never going to come out and he was going to get stuck. When he was coming out I guess he wasnt positioned correctly and they had to turn him. Let me tell you I could feel all of that even with the epidural since it had only been 10 min since they put it in. They had to use so much lubricant so I wouldn’t tear and try to stretch me as much as they could with their hands. Luckily it worked and I only had a small tear up top where you urinate that didn’t need to be stitched. I swear I thought I tore from top to bottom but I didn’t. I am still in pain from giving birth because of how horrible that labor was on my body. After I gave birth I didn’t really want to hold my baby because of how bad my labor was. I just wanted to pass out. It took me quite a few hours of my fiancé asking me if everything was okay and the nurse asking me to try skin to skin to warm up to my baby. I love him with all my heart now. I’m debating on having anymore kids. I know if there is a next time I will get that epidural with no questions asked once my pain level is at a 5 out of 10. I hope to never get induced again, but that is unlikely since my body can’t go into labor on its own. I don’t regret getting pregnant with my third child or anything. I love my son with all my heart... I’m just still shocked from how my labor went and I’m legit scared to get pregnant again. Just thinking about it gets my heart racing because it scares me now. I don’t mean to scare anyone, but I just had to vent and let this out.