It's finally happening

Julie
My husband and I have been waiting several days to find out if I miscarried with confirmation coming this upcoming Wednesday. But now I've started bleeding so I guess we know. 
I'm having a really weird time. I've been grieving and devestated for days now. But now that it's happening I feel somewhat relieved. I'm still sad, of course, but I feel like at least now I know and I'm glad it's happening naturally. 
I feel like I just want this to be over and get back to trying again. Does this make me a monster?