Quick backstory- 6 months ago, me and my ex broke up. I was so in love with him but it didn’t work out and I eventually moved on.

Anyways, in the breakup process i lost a lot of weight, gained confidence, and have been having fun. I have lovedddd being single and doing what I want.

My best friend is a guy named Cody. We’ve been best friends for about 5 months, and when i say we’re close I mean it, he knows everything about me. I know he liked me at one point in the beginning but i shut it down bc I didnt want a relationship. Time went on and we’ve been through so much together and I love him so much as a friend.

In the last couple months I started sleeping with a new guy and it was super casual and fun I loved it. He ended up getting a gf but it was cool with me.

Backstory over now where I may have fucked up begins : so I never expected anything to happen with Cody and I, I mean hes so important to me, losing him would kill me. We were doing our normal shit last night like watching new girl and eating food but we changed it up a little and got high.

We have this thing where i tickle his arm he’ll tickle my back, just a little trade off, nothing out of the usual. While tickling my back he started getting closer to my hips and touching my hands. And i didn’t know whether to panic or what so i just chilled

Sooner than i know it were cuddling and holding hands and not even high anymore. It gets to be about 4am and yes we stayed up and yes I️m dying rn but he kisses me and it wasn’t just any kiss. He grabbed my face and pulled me in really close to the point i could hear his heartbeat.

As if i wasn’t already like holy hell😍 he grabs my ass and then slaps it and i died a little. We kept making out and it got more and more intense. I was in top of him and he got my bra off and he started kissing my neck. I started breathing heavily and dying inside and I could feel him hard underneath me as we kept making out

andddddd i had to stop it. Mother Nature payed me a visit this week and hasn’t left yet so probably for the best but ugh 😩😍

anyway we kissed more and cuddled and fell asleep but now I️m thinking . This is my BEST FRIEND. Our dynamic is so fucking good, I’ve never been happier with a friendship and let’s face it, I️m not ready for a relationship. I love talking to other guys and having fun. I want Cody but i don’t want a relationship but i don’t want to hurt him and lose what we have

. It’s my senior year of hs and I dont wanna get hurt again or lose Cody?! Help pls. P.S- He’s asleep next to me rn. If anyone has advice pls send it cuz ya girls in trouble