feeling in the gutters..

my boyfriend and I have been together for over a year, I see a future with him and he sees a future with me, he tells me he wants kids with me and to marry me, a baby means alot to me, I've been wanting a baby so bad. He made a promise to me one night when he caught me watching videos on how to prepare for kids while I was crying, he told me on graduation day, he'd give me a kid or attempt to since we can't have a set-in-stone date to conceive, but it meant alot to me and still does..hes planning to go to the navy though..last night we had an argument..he started talking about why he's scared and he even started crying and so did I..he told me he wants to be able to give me the life he and I never had..he said he wants to take our kids to places they'll never forget..I know how he feels..but he wants to hold off on his promise..he says he's scared cause what if he dies, he's not planning on going into combat but I feel like we'll never have a kid then if he's scared he's gonna die..No one knows when we're gonna die..thats something that just happens..and I feel like if you're scared of that and the kid growing up without a dad then it will never happen..im the most scared..im going to be carrying the baby..anything can happen to me too..anything we do when we step outside our house or stay inside our house or sleep or breathe is a risk..i trust in God that we'll be safe and he'll help us along the way..idk how I should feel about putting my dream aside while he lives his..hes always wanted to be in the military..i just need help on what to do..my heart is broken.