So we had our 2nd <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> just before Christmas, and two days ago was the end of my TWW and my day to pee on a stick. I was thrilled to get a faint line, called my dr, went in for a blood test, and they called yesterday to tell me it was positive! We went out to dinner, so giddy and happy, and just were so excited that our prayers had finally been answered.

So I had to go in this morning for another blood test (48 hours from the first one) and my hCG levels have dropped, and my nurse calls to tell me it is a “chemical pregnancy” and that my cycle will start once my hCG levels zero out. Talk about a mf’ing rollercoaster. From the highest high, to the lowest low all in one weekend.

I’m beginning to lose hope and feel like I’m a failure. Like I missed my window to have a baby and that it’s just not in the cards. Our insurance covers ZERO infertility treatments, so this has all been out of pocket and because of my age, (just turned 38) our Dr. to wants to switch to

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>

after <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> #3, which we really can’t afford. I just feel lost, deflated, discouraged and so so so very sad.