I like him but I’m scared. It’s impossible for me to tell what this is to him. Nothing is official and we’ve only just kissed. I’m afraid to say anything but I don’t want to waste anyone’s time specifically mine. I don’t know how I should tell him or if I should. I wanna know how he feels but it’s been only a few weeks since we’ve started hanging out and stuff. There’s a lot I like about him. I like that he wants me to talk more and he makes me talk. I like that he kinda just babbles on for a while before making me talk. I like he kissed my cheek first before actually kissing me. I like that when he held me he pulled my shirt down cause it was riding up. I like that he gave me his huge jacket when I got cold and that when I curled up in it I fit perfectly. I like how he sings his ridiculously inappropriate songs to me. I like how tall he is. I like how sweet he was when I hurt my knee and even though I said I didn’t need his help and asked him to help me he did. I love his nerd rants. I like that he thinks he can help wain me off of coffee for a sticker. I like a lot about him. But I’m afraid of what will happen if anything else happens. I’m afraid of a lot because I’ve been through a lot and I don’t want to become what I hope I’ll never be again. I don’t want that I want to know if it’s just sex he hopes he’ll get or if he wants a relationship. I wanna slow down he to know him and him to know me. And to hopefully find a best friend not just a bf.