Warning this doesn’t make sense and is repetitive. I just need to vent.

So I’m 21 married been with my husband since 2011. My best friend is 20 she’s single lives with mom. I’m a home body and she’s likes to go out. We pretty much have opposite mind states and we’re of different stages in life, but I feel like we balance each other out. I love her tho that’s my boo.

Anyways back in July we were smoking in her garage and I blurted our that it would be my last time smoking weed with her bc my husband and I were going to TTC. She said she was happy for me and that my baby would be her baby too lol. Anyways, a couple cycles went by and my husband and I were tired of trying so hard and not getting any progress. And we supposedly decided to stop trying and wait until later on when we would be more financially stable. So I told her that bc we would talk about everything. She said she would be happy either way but she was especially happy we decided to wait so we could keep smoking together. The next cycle came and my husband and I kept trying anyways. We want our little one.

I never told her we’re still trying I figured lots of people get pregnant smoking weed anyways. Id obviously stop when I get my bfp.

So fast forward to Now my best friend got pregnant off of a one night stand and I’m helping her through the process of abortion. I was jealous because we’ve been trying since July.....I’m 21 it should be that complicated but it is. Anyways I can’t talk to her about how hard ttc has been for us. And I just wanna talk about it but now that she’s waiting for her abortion on the 16th I feel like insensitive to talk about it now. She feels bad about the abortion, but it’s something she feels is the right thing to do. I told her that what she feels is the right decision will be the right decision and she assures me it was the right thing for her but every now and then she would talk about how she feels bad.

So I’m close to my positive opk and I’m litterally so excited and want to talk to her about it and all that but I feel like it would be insensitive....