This is a long post and I just need to put it all out there in the hopes that it helps with the healing process. I had my first miscarriage 1/9/17. I was only aware of the pregnancy for 5 days before starting to bleed. We had been trying to conceive baby #2 for over 4 years at that point. It was traumatizing so my husband and I decided to take a break from TTC. We started trying again in September 2017 and after only 2 cycles got our BFP on 11/21/17. We had an ultrasound scheduled 12/20/17 at which point we should have been 7 weeks 5 days but the baby was only measuring 6 weeks and had no heartbeat. We were still optimistic though and our doctor didn’t seem concerned just thought maybe we were off on our dates. Another ultrasound was scheduled 2 weeks later for 1/3/18. At this appointment we saw no growth and still no heartbeat. We should have been almost 10 weeks. Since the baby stopped growing almost 4 weeks before and my body was showing no signs of miscarrying, it was recommended that I have a D&C.; I honestly couldn’t imagine going through all the pain and bleeding like what I experienced with my first miscarriage so I opted for the surgery. It’s been 4 days since my surgery. 4 days since my baby was removed from my womb and I feel so empty. I just want everything to get back to normal so we can try again right away. My doctor said there was no reason we should have to wait except to have a reference point to go by if I were to get pregnant again right away. I was also told I would have bleeding for a week to 10 days after the surgery and once bleeding stopped we could resume all normal activity. I’ve not even started to bleed and have minimal cramping. It’s only been 4 days but all of my pregnancy symptoms are gone. I didn’t think I would miss morning sickness, sore boobs, heartburn, and fatigue but all I want is to be pregnant again. I hope and pray that my cycle starts back quickly and I’m pregnant again soon. While I know I can’t replace the babies I’ve lost and I will always miss them, i want more than anything to have another baby. If you made I all the way through, thank you for hearing me out.