Just not fair. I feel like a failure

About 7 dpo I had light cramping. My boobs were very tender for several days. I had a higher than normal resting heart rate. I had a couple bouts of nausea. I NEVER have those things with a normal period. I just KNEW this was our month after ten months of trying. I just knew it in my heart...

AF just started.

I’m home alone tonight and all I can do is cry because I feel like such a failure. I have some health issues such a hpv and being high risk precancerous with benign growths on my cervix. My body can’t even do the one thing it was made to do. How do you deal with feelings like these?! How do people go years feeling like this?! My boyfriend was SO excited that I’m afraid to tell him and upset him. He’s SUPER supportive and understanding but I know how badly he wants a baby too and it just didn’t happen. Again. I’m so jealous of women that have no issues getting pregnant.