emotional, hormonal mess! I just want a hug...

37w5d. I just found out last week that baby is breech and I'm now scheduled for a c-section next Thursday. This is my third baby and my other two were vaginal, unmedicated births. I know this is safest for baby, but I'm still having a hard time coping with the idea of a c-section. Also - hubby wants a vasectomy. This is our second baby together and they will only be 15 months apart. My 11 year old is from a previous relationship. I have my heart set on a 4th child already (maybe a couple of years from now, before I turn 35), but hubby says no way. I expressed to him I was upset he couldn't cut the umbilical cord with current baby due to having a c-section (our hospital rules) then he proceeds to tell me he can't remember if he cut the cord for our 15 month old son. Really....really?! I'm so upset today. Just can't handle all the emotions. ughh.