Impossible to orgasm

Hey ladies I have a question!! I have never in my life had an orgasm. I’ve tried masturbating, but touching myself doesn’t turn me on at all. i get very turned on when i’m with a partner, but have never came.. I dont even know what it feels like to. sometimes when being touched down there 🐱 it becomes so overwhelming to me that my body can’t handle it, and i have to stop. it’s not like it’s painful, but i don’t find the stimulation enjoyable. is this normal? is this how it feels to almost orgasm? I really feel like i’ll never be able to.. and it’s all i want 😩 thank you for the advice!!