You walk around like everything is okay. But as soon as you have 2 moments alone everything crashes. Your heart hits the floor. You cry so hard you can barely breathe but you cover your mouth so no one can hear. You feel every piece of you shredding and flying away. You can't catch them no matter how hard you try. In that moment it's just you. Time stands still and you can break as much as you need to. Then you hear a noise. You stand up, dry your eyes, and move as if you never stopped in the first place.