So my SO and I, we’ve had difficulties in the pass where we had to be separated for two years ( keep this in mind) soo come to find out...he basically said I’m leaving for 8 years and I’m cutting off communications, I won’t have my phone, and that no one going to know where he’s at. Etc etc. So he can better himself and change.

And yes I was furious and hurt and kinda still is but I told him hey I’m on your side; I’m cheering you on; I’m not going to hinder/ argue with you on this and I’m glad you’re wanting to be better in life.

But the thing is if he’s been complaining about the 2 years that we’ve been apart... yo why leave me for 8 after that? And it’s soo irksome because I’ve been thru hell, stepping my butt on shard glass and everywhere multiple times and he’s just going to whine up and leave.

And yes I wasn’t shedding any tears and was trying to be a hard head-ass bitch ( who aka doesn’t have feelings) when I was telling me this but now that I’m thinking about this it pains me so much having me crying cause he’s important to me and I wasn’t expecting to be by myself after the 2 years were up.

I was expecting to be loved, adore, pampered, and in the hands of the person I wanted to be with for the pass for years and he’s all like it’s going to be hell for you the first 3 years or the first year but you’re going to be okay later on... and I’m just like no I’m not boy cause even tho it’s been 3 years I still constantly think about you 24/7 like we’re still in our prime of puppy love.

And then not only that but he told his bestfriend ( whose a female) the same exact thing and when she bust out crying he said he was going to go visit her to calm her down and what not. Which makes me fired up with envy as to how he’s catering to her...

So it gets me going whether I’m important or am I’m a priority in his life when he’s doing this, yet alone rarely showing attention lately...which I understand why he would...but I’m going to stop typing because I would literally type a book and necessarily don’t like sharing my emotions/ letting people know my business..but I’m just hurting soo 🤷🏽‍♂️

But anyway if y’all have any advice about this let me know would love all the help I can get.