Finally honest

My dad is a pastor, church and church events was many times per week in my upbringing.. It wasn't just a Christian home- every aspect of life was about God and although my parents are very loving people and I assumed they wouldn't kick me out I never could talk to them about how I felt. I still can't really. Well fast forward I'm in my 20s married to a lovely man who openly told me he was bi-sexual while we were datin g but he like me never acted on it, or told people other the me. We are now expecting our sweet little baby anytime now and both know we want our kids to know they can be who they are without fear like we had. However, now I'm in this place where I feel like I'm denying part of myself by never giving myself the opportunity to really be me. While my husband and I love each other it's more like we are best friends living together if that makes any sense? We've both told each other that if we wanted we could date other people without jealousy, still come home and love each other and our child But it feels like it's too late, not many people would be open to a relationship with someone who is married and has a kid.