I know this is long but I really need some help Long story short & here’s an example....

He’s broken up w me 2 times because he was afraid of not being good enough for me & he didn’t know if he wanted me out of lust... he cane back to me crying his eyes out saying that he wanted me back blah blah blah... we were broken up for 2 months & I slept w someone because I really thought it was over... I do value sex & I think it’s something important but i did it for me, i did it to get my mind off of everything & I didn’t do it w a stranger he was a friend & idk how to explain that. I’m not making excuses but I shouldn’t be judged I feel like no matter what I do he’s always finding a way out..

the other day we went to the movies & he grabbed my boob & i told him we weren’t ready for that, I want us to just be us & not worry about that.

I care about him emotionally & he has a lot of stuff going on which is also why i don’t think HE is ready

Update: we’ve moved on from this we ended up having sex about a month later & it was perfect, we shared & expressed & confessed our love

But...

love is a cup of pure water, but when hurtful decisions are made it’s tainted...

me & the love of my life have been having some rough times lately & I love him so so much. I know that time heals but if anyone could please give me some relationship advice & how we could both take our fear & anxieties & worries away...

we have both said some hurtful things as well but we both know what we want & that we love each other so I know we’ll be okay

We have wonderful & happy times but our worries & fear of losing each other & our past comes back

We have amazing days together, but it seems like when we’re apart we go back to square one & he feels like he has to leave & says he doesn’t forgive me

I don’t feel good at all, I don’t feel the same w out him. I have so much anxiety that I only ate once yesterday. I tried calling & texted him on Twitter & deleted our pictures on social media I’m truly hurt

A day before all this we were fine, happy

He’s my other half & he is apart of me

My heart is breaking because I hurt the person I love most w out even realizing it

I’m so afraid of loosing him