Hello everyone. I don't have many to confide in with this situation, so first, I want to thank you for being that outlet that I need right now.

I'll start from the beginning. In 2014, I announced at Thanksgiving that we were expecting. My family was so elated, especially because we had lost my father only 2 months prior. So, naturally, my mother and sister wanted to start planning a baby shower right away, and they kept bombarding me with questions of what I wanted to do for it. A week later, I slipped on some ice, and two days following that, I'm in the hospital miscarrying and freaked out so much, that my BP was over 250, and they wouldn't release me for a good five hours. Needless to say, it was a very traumatizing event for both me and my husband, and we feared we would never be able to have a baby.

Fast forward to last August, which followed SO MANY failed attempts at trying, and so much discouragement, and we FINALLY see that little blue plus sign! As before, we are extremely excited to have our rainbow baby! My mother and sister, as well. They started planning again as soon as they knew, but my husband and I decided to not get too excited this time. We've been taking everything one day at a time, and we're so scared that something will go wrong. I guess they didn't care for us to ask them to wait for a more assuring time, because I'm now at 25 weeks 6 days, I've JUST started to feel my baby (which I guess has me overly excited for him to come), and I'm due April 22nd, and NOW they choose to hold on the planning steps, even though they've chosen March 24th for the shower. I want to get a plan together, and the word out now, since we have loved ones who have been willing to travel for it. I want to be courteous to them in planning. However, all I keep getting in responses are short answers and "please calm down/be patient/we'll see".

I guess my uncertainty lies in whether I'm being selfish in wanting to get excited now, as opposed to when they wanted me to be.....part of me doesn't even want the baby shower anymore, because whenever I talk about it, I'm hushed. I love my family, and I love my baby, and I would LOVE to have this shower! (It's supposed to be an "Introduction to Baby" shower,

with gender and name reveal, with a chalkboard/grey/pastel rainbow color scheme)

However......is it stupid to be this excited?.....I'm getting more and more discouraged every time I open my mouth about the shower, or even the baby, in general.......