TTC struggles...

I'm 2 weeks and 2 days late for af and still getting negatives. TTC and af are so cruel I just want to give up already. I'm tired of disappointment each and every month. TTC for 1 year, 5 months and 6 days, sometimes I feel like it's not meant to happen and that's why it's taking long. I know some ladies have been trying for longer but it's still heartbreaking knowing you want it so bad and it might never happen. This is the worst pain I have ever felt in life. Then letting parents and husband down knowing they really want it also is even more hurtful to go through. I don't know how you ladies do it that have been trying longer than me. I tried preseed for 5 months with no luck.