So I’m 17, me and my bf have been together for 9 months, and I love him, on some level at least. He is so in love with me, and he is always available, making me feel bad for maybe not having as strong feelings for him as he seem to have for me.

When I’m with him, I feel so happy inside, and it feels like I wouldn’t be able to live without him. Breaking up feels like out of the question. I could almost cry just thinking about it. He has been my closest friend and bf for quite a while now.

But when we’re not hanging out, it feels more like a burden. Since I only ever spent my time with him (previously), I have missed my friends - and I still haven’t told all of my friends that I’m dating him.

I sometimes wish I was single, so that I could flirt with other guys without feeling bad for it.

I have always hung out mostly with male friends, and over the years more than a few have been making moves and flirting with me - both real friends and friends of theirs. It feels really good to be wanted by them. At some point, I have actually enjoyed leading them on.

There’s one guy, he is really funny, nerdy and attractive. When I hung out with him and a group of friends during the summer, I felt really attracted to him. I’ve even dreamt about kissing him..

I have always wanted him to fancy me, and he has seemed interested in me.

I hadn’t seen him for a long time (since before we all started in our new schools) and since a few weeks back I started hanging out with him and his friends again. They’re really funny to be around.

But now I’m feeling attracted to him once again. I could never cheat, and this guy isn’t someone I could realistically be in a relationship with, but I keep wanting to kiss him. When drinking with them, I think about using the alcohol as an excuse.

I have had this feeling that I could fall in love with him, the very same feeling that I have always had before actually falling for someone.

But my bf is the sweetest, I could never break his heart. At the same time - I want this other guy.

So, am I a bad person for staying with my bf even though I long for another guy?

What should I do?

Things have been a bit different with me emotionally ever since I got depressed 4 months ago (I’m diagnosed with it). Hormones have always been an issue with me, and my mind changes all the time.

I have such a fun time with my friends, but I feel like I should spend more time with my bf, like we used to.

Please give me some advice on what to do in my situation.