I got married recently, and was married to the guy that my family chose for me. I knew him as a kid but that was 10 years ago. We started talking 3 months ago after our engagement. Since I have never had sex before, I was very nervous and didn’t want to have sex or kiss or anything like that on my wedding night. I told him but he kept insisting and touching me even though I didn’t like it. So I ended up having sex. But every time he kisses me or touches me I don’t feel nothing. There is no good feeling or attraction like I thought there would be. I don’t like having sex. it’s been a month and it still hurts when we have sex. Every time he tries to come close to me I want to run away from him. How do I deal with all this? And with me not finding him attractive?