40+3 and this is my last hope

I have a scheduled induction for Thursday if little man doesn’t make his arrival before then. I’d like to avoid a medical induction as I’ve heard labor tends to be longer and more painful with pitocin but I can’t stand being pregnant any longer. Yeah yeah I know everyone feels the same way at a certain point. I’m so sore and in pain all the time and keeping up with my two year old is near impossible at this point. I’ve tried EVERYTHING to get this baby to come on his own except sex and, until this morning, castor oil. I’m separated so sex isn’t an option. I was so hesitant on castor oil for so long, but after doing more research I’ve seen a majority of people who had issues from it (or whose baby’s had issues from it) were past 41 weeks. Which is when mother and baby are at higher risk for complications anyways. I took the absolute lowest dose (1Tbsp) and mixed it with some juice. I also had to chase it down with some juice after cause man oh man the taste of trying to swallow oil. I’ve been constipated for two days so I figure if it doesn’t get labor started the least it’ll help me do is get rid of that problem. And I plan on chugging water like a mad man to avoid dehydration. People can say whatever they want about it but after much research and thought and talking to the baby’s father and my midwife, this is what I feel is best. I’m really just hoping it works as I literally don’t know what else to do.