I never in a thousand years would have thought that this would happen to us. My SO of 2 years left me yesterday morning. He was my fiancé, and he called off the engagement, wedding, everything...

I honestly want to die... My whole world, my entire future, has been blown apart - blown into pieces of shrapnel that are cutting into my mind and heart.

He said he called off the engagement because he doesn't think we'd be happy together in marriage. He says I need someone who can give me more time and attention... That we're young and he wants to wait a while for marriage. He's scared that if we got married, the guys would come around like they do now and try to take me away from him. He had been thinking about it since November.

The thing is, I know he's who I was supposed to marry. This hurts so bad... I'm not only losing him, but his whole fucking family. Their house was my "home". I ran to them for love and safety... His nieces and nephews all call me "aunt". His mom was supposed to be my mother-in-law.

We've been together for two years. We were supposed to be married by four years. I don't know what I'm supposed to do with my wedding stuff I've bought. And what about the ring? Do I sell it? I hate this... I hate it so much. He slept over, with us both crying for hours, we had sex..., cried some more, and he left at 9am.

Guys... This was the man I was supposed to marry. The man that i was going to get to call "husband/hubby". I was supposed to be his wife, the one that he came home to every night...

UPDATE: so I logged onto his Snapchat from my phone (I know, I know... Not good - but I had to know why he broke it all off) and I saw flirtatious messages to other girls, and stuff about meeting up with them.

He found out I looked at his snapchat, and he told me that those girls were not the reason he left me. He said that the reason he left me was because all during our two year relationship I made him want to kill himself.

Yeah, he said that. Dropped that bomb out of the blue. I have no idea what on earth I could've said to him that would make him feel that way. Why would he keep having sex with a person that made him want to commit suicide?

None of it makes sense. He and his entire family won't speak to me now...