I can't believe he would do this to me...

I never in a thousand years would have thought that this would happen to us. My SO of 2 years left me yesterday morning. He was my fiancé, and he called off the engagement, wedding, everything...

I honestly want to die... My whole world, my entire future, has been blown apart - blown into pieces of shrapnel that are cutting into my mind and heart.

He said he called off the engagement because he doesn't think we'd be happy together in marriage. He says I need someone who can give me more time and attention... That we're young and he wants to wait a while for marriage. He's scared that if we got married, the guys would come around like they do now and try to take me away from him.

He had been thinking about it since November. The thing is, I know he's who I was supposed to marry. This hurts so bad... I'm not only losing him, but his whole fucking family. Their house was my "home". I ran to them for love and safety... His nieces and nephews all call me "aunt". His mom was supposed to be my mother-in-law.

We've been together for two years. We were supposed to be married by four years. I don't know what I'm supposed to do with my wedding stuff I've bought. And what about the ring? Do I sell it? I hate this... I hate it so much. He slept over, with us both crying for hours, we had sex..., cried some more, and he left at 9am.

Guys... This was the man I was supposed to marry. The man that i was going to get to call "husband/hubby". I was supposed to be his wife, the one that he came home to every night...