After being tricked yet again by AF (no regular PMS symptoms leading up to period, then pregnancy symptoms starting day it was due and AF showed up a day late like the manipulating B that she is...) I have decided to just indulge and do whatever the hell I want to. sick and tired of being lied to by my own body. I feel so betrayed and sick of it. Going to try to forget about trying. I wish I never ever wanted kids. I wish I could mute that biological clock that is ticking. I wish my husband would be supportive in getting a semen analysis (apparently that thought that something is wrong with him is so freaking stressful... gee you don't say huh? 😒 wonder who else feels that way...) I'm sure he'll come around eventually, hopefully I can keep my sanity in tack till then. This journey sucks, to all the other women still on this journey, I feel your pain, you're not alone. To those that are going to say "relax it'll happen when God means it to happen" just don't please, so tired of being told that , doing my best to relax and still nothing but heartbreak 😣 Today I'm cracking open a bottle, eating as much cake as I damn well please, because that, I can do.