I'm married, and I wouldn't do anything to intentionally hurt my husband. Bless his heart. But is it wrong to secretly wish for another guy to look at you, and not be disgusted?

My husband isn't even physically attracted to me, so I know what I'm asking for wont come from him.

It's a long shot, but there are some days where I wish amongst the chaos of clothing choice and the mom hair bun I leave the house in, that I could catch a passing glance from someone not staring because I'm wearing sweats at the grocery store because my wide-load can't fit into skinny jeans... And then, maybe smile for a second.

Eh, I know it's a petty thought. I'm not asking for miracles though. Just wanted to ask opinions because of the guilt of this secret.