the worst thing that i thought would never happen

Jessica • mommy of a angel baby 👶and blaze born 12/13/18

I never thought this would happen but I just found out I lost my baby he/she stop growing at 7 1/2 weeks and I am a mess right. now I don't know what caused it I wish I did. maybe it would make it easier I don't know. all I know is this sucks so bad and I wouldn't wish this on anyone I wish I could take it. back. I wish. I would wake up from this tirbble dream but I know that won't ever happen I am tired of people saying it be okay it won't be okay. it will never be okay ever all I feel like doing is being alone which isn't a good thing I feel like I should just shut people out. idk what to do anymore if u went threw this please tell me what u. did to help u is it normal to contuine to cry

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Sa

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i was given this book today. i have heard great things. sorry your going through this as well. we lost our twins at 7 weeks. we found out last week which i was 11 weeks pregant. i had a d&c; on monday. I'm glad I chose that option.

Je

Jessica • Jan 18, 2018
hmm i going to look for one

Sa

Sarah • Jan 18, 2018
It was sent to me by a friend but she ordered it from amazon.

Je

Jessica • Jan 18, 2018
where did u get that book i want one. iwas told i was having twin then ob said there. was only one so i want to know why the hospital said there was twins i sorry u going threw this i know its not easy my baby stopped growing at 7 1/2 weeks

Ha

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I totally understand how you feel I lost a baby last month, it’s heartbreaking 😩 so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you ❤️

Je

Jessica • Jan 16, 2018
it is very heartbreaking i been hope to hear its not true hiw are u getting threw it

Sa

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❤️❤️❤️❤️

El

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I just want to let you know I went though something similar I was pregnant and didn't find out till I was 6 weeks then I had an ultrasound at 7 1/2 weeks and it was not growing right they said it was a molar pregnancy and I had to have a dnc to remove it I was so broken about it and confused but I know my baby is in heaven so I just prayed and let my family help me through I know some days are hard then others for you

Je

Jessica • Feb 14, 2018
my baby bc maybe he or she was sick but he or she is looking over me

Je

Jessica • Feb 14, 2018
yes very hard at times but i will never forget my baby or stop loveing my baby i think bout my baby all the time i was very confused and still am bc I never knew what cause i didn't really get my closer so that's hard tommrow will be a month since it happen i do know when i get pregnant again i not telling anyone till i am 12 weeks then my family and friends don't have go through it again if it happens again. which i hope dont happen. as soon ss i get pregnant again i will pray everyday i pray now to this will. be our year i think. god took

Sa

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I completely relate. I have had 2 miscarriages in the past and it is the most heart wrenching thing I have ever been through. It ruined my relationship, I pushed everyone who loved me away and blamed myself. If I could go back I would appreciate the people who are there for me because all they wanted to do was support me but I completely understand the feeling of wanting to be alone. Sometimes it’s good to have alone time but I would try and surround yourself with people who care for you it will help. I have a problem with my Fallopian tubes twisted so found it hard for me as I blamed myself but it was not my fault! I was told that I would never be able to conceive and would need a surrogate if I was to have children! But I am now 7 weeks pregnant and going strong so think positive cause I truely believe that everything happens for a reason and one day you will have a loving family even if it takes heart break after heart break to get there, you will get there! All the best. Hope your okay

Sa

Sally • Jan 19, 2018
I understand and if your friends want what’s best they will understand that you want some alone time too. You do need time to heal but at the same time getting out and enjoying yourself will hello as well. It’s just trying to get the right balance for you. Always here and praying for you

Je

Jessica • Jan 18, 2018
i am trying to be okay my friendd have pushed a lil to much on makin me go out and do things i do need some alone time to heal i can tell it not easy. ro heal from this and i will never completly heal it just sucks bc i thought this was my time. to. be a mommy i do belive one day. i will have a. baby i pray everyday when i am done recovering from this that god wil give me my family

Ro

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it is normal to cry i had a miscarriage in 2013 and i still cry and think about my baby even after having another baby in 2014 nothing can replace that baby not even when you have another baby i know exactly how you are feeling

Je

Jessica • Jan 19, 2018
right i bleive. Ib furture. i will have. my family but i will never forget this baby and i will never stop loving this baby. my family just gave me necklace that says. pice of my heart is in heaven

Br

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I lost my angel last month on the 17th..Yesterday it made a month and today I still grieve over that baby..All I did was cry and I fell into deep depressiob with suicidal thoughts..I blamed myself for stressing.I blamed myself for everything

Je

Jessica • Jan 19, 2018
i have really bad depression i trying to be. okay just verry hard i had couple of sucide thoughts

An

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I totally understand how you are feeling . I had an emergency D&c; just a week ago . We found out the baby stopped growing at 6 weeks but my body didn’t realize it so I went on 7 weeks without knowing until just last week I passed the sac and I had some really bad hemorrhage. You didn’t do anything wrong it happens . Prayers to you ❤️

Je

Jessica • Jan 17, 2018
yeah i idj what i am looking for or anything so i calling my doctor bc i have somethings that concern me and dont make sence to me either. thanks for the prayers

Da

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We lost our twins in October. Found out when they were 10.5 weeks and had to have surgery 4 days later. I feel the same pain you do and unfortunately it hasn’t gone away. It gets easier to smile but the pain is still there.

Je

Jessica • Jan 17, 2018
that make ne feel alot better it easier to talk to someone that knows how i feel and can talk to me bout their experience which makes things a lil easier i know my baby loves me and will be watching over everyday. which makes me feel better knowing that and my mom told me my baby is with my grandma and my grandma loves my baby and she loved my baby when she saw from heaven yhat i was having a baby

Da

Da • Jan 16, 2018
Everyday will bring some sort of emotions. I have gone through infertility and now miscarriage. One day you will wake up and realize why this happened. I have gone through long battles of infertility and spoke about it and let people know it should not be a secret and now that I’ve gone through the loss of our babies I have realized I was suppose to go through all this to help other women. I love to speak about my journey and make other women who are experiencing similar situations that they are not alone and I am here! Your baby loves you and will always love you and will be watching over you everyday!:)

Je

Jessica • Jan 16, 2018
that is very good idea i want to get a tatto for mine. as well and i belive when i am ready i will talk bout him or her. him or her are part of family and will always be apart of my family no matter what. i just hope someday i will have my kids. and i can tell them bout. their sister or brother thats in heaven i got alot of people telling alot of comforting thing that has helped alot i love my baby and always will love my baby is in my heart forever