I go unnoticed. In my own house, surrounded by those who are ment to love me.

Judged. Because I can bearly get out of bed anymore. But never asked why. I can’t, it’s been so long I don’t want to.

I know I’m depressed but I go unnoticed. My feelings go unnoticed. I cried today, consecutively for 15 minutes... my tears went unnoticed, my hysterical breathing ignored, just like my feelings and my opinions.

I’m stuck.

Stuck in a relationship with somebody I hate!

Stuck living with people I can’t stand.

Stuck in a town I despise.

Stuck.

I’m currently pregnant with my second child. I haven’t been able to feel a shred of happiness.

I am numb. But only numb to good feelings. I still feel every ounce of loneliness, every ounce of sadness, regret, longing and numbness, I feel numb.

Stress.