Hi, this is my story... I started my eating disorder because of control. My dad was mentally abiding me and my sister. My mom divorced him! He held a gun to her head! I used to be a healthy happy kid, eating whatever! When puberty hit, I stated to gain a lot of weight! I became one of the chubbier kids. My dad told me I ate to much( think I was 10 and already going through. Puberty) he legit told me and my sister we were fat! I started to watch what I ate. I counted my calories, looked up diets(fads), tried vegan, tried vegetarian! I basically spent all my time thinking about food and how i could burn it off. (The reason it is about control is because I couldn’t control my dad, so I controlled

My eating) I stated to lose weight, I was healthy outside not in! I slowly decreased my food intake! At my lowest weight I was 5 ft and 80 lbs!!! I was eating around 600. Stories a day, and burning double!Mom got worried! She made me go see a doctor. The doctor was no help, she basically didn’t care.(we obviously changed doctors) that trip I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. I was devastated, not even believing I had it!! I wanted to get better, but I didn’t want to get “ fat” I would pr tend i was eating it and chew up my food and spit it out!( I wanted to taste but not swallow) DON’T TRY THAT I was losing more and using water to make me seem I gained weight at the doctor. I stated to see a nutritionist, counselor, and a psychiatrist.( I was also seeing counselors about my dad) After I realized that hiding my food just wasn’t happing I stayed to eat. I had to eat 5000 calories a day just to gain weight because my body was so deprived. I am now 105 lbs a t 5ft 1 . I want to stay to be able to work out(because I lost all my muscle when I starved myself) I am almost completely recovered(I’m still thin but that is normal for a 12 year old) I only have to stop thinking, omg look at my legs and stomach, I’m fat, I’m ugly, ect. I am only seeing doctors for that reason now, and to maintain. I hope all of you girls, in recovery or hiding, will recover soon! Everyone deserves to be happy, everyone deserves to eat.❤️sending love to you all!!