Gender disappointment

Feeling incredibly guilty over my gender disappointment. Got Materniti21 results today. Our baby is healthy (which i am ecstatic about) and we are having our 3rd girl. I feel horribly guilty and shallow considering all the fertility struggles and heartaches women experience when learning of fetal health issues but man i so desperately secretly wanted a boy and my entire family has let it be known they want a boy too. Now dreading a gender reveal. Please don’t blast me for feeling this way. Wondering of anyone else has been through this and how you coped. Trying for a 4th is not an option considering age and finances.