The hardest month of my life

We found out in December that we were pregnant ♥️ so happy so excited! We have prayed for this day! I️ went to my 1st apt. At what we thought was my 8 wk Mark. But was measuring at 6 weeks. Had to wait another long trying week to go back and check for heartbeat and fetal growth. Nothing. Our baby was gone. We were in shock. Waited another 2 wks to see if my body would take care of itself and it didn’t. Had to take the meds in order to move things along. It’s been a week and and few days. Terrible cramping. Terrible bleeding. Could have never imagined how hard this would be. I️m hurt. I️m sad. I️m confused. Angry. Unsure. Anxious. But most of all heart broken. Any advice? I️ know it will get better. And we pray constantly. First day back to work and it has been a long hard day..... my mind going in a million directions.