Has anyone else lost hope?...

MeLissa • 18. TTC For 9 months. 3 angel babies. ???❤️????
I'm 12 dpo and got 2 BFN's within seconds... This is my 9th month all in all TTC and I just can't seem to carry a baby full term. I've had two miscarriages since September... I'm beginning to lose faith that I can't do the one thing a woman is supposed to be able to do... Does anyone else feel like that? :(