When you’re almost 30 and still don’t know what to be when you grow up

It is very out of character for me to post anywhere for advice (I’m painfully shy and anxious) but I’m just at the end of my rope. Went to school for Family and Human Development and have been working in the Child Development field for over five years now. I love children and early childhood, but the pay is bad pretty much across the board. I have dreams of having my own kiddos one day but I can’t even imagine being this poor and miserable and bringing a child into that. I went back to school for HR but can’t seem to break into the field. So really the point of this rambling is just to ask- what do you all do for work? Do you love it? Hate it? How do you feel satisfied in life?!? I’m feeling so stuck and all the negativity is bringing me down in all areas of life now, not just work .....