I have no where else to write this...I need to let it out

My partner and I only been together going on six months. We have a place together and are madly in love. I have two kids from two different fathers but he doesn’t care he loves them as much as he loves me. I have pcos and it pretty much takes me a while to convince, it took me almost two years for my youngest who will be two in March. See I always wanted the wedding before children and the whole house not apartment before kids. But this was the hand I was dealt. I guess my path was to find this man. He wants to give me everything i deserve and wants to do it the right way, but he is also not opposed to doing it all types of backwards. He’s fine with marriage before kids and is fine with kids before marriage. He reminds me he isn’t going anywhere. Anywho sounds so cliche right lol. But we spoke the other day about how we’d like to continue to save up for a home and figure out finances and how we would be able to work it out that I am a sahm at least for the first year or two, and we have ourselves a deadline of one to two years. Honestly I’m getting older and my pcos might be getting worse, so I suggested we ttc now before anything worse can happen “I always think the worse case scenarios” and this was done over text. I explained how I know we are still so new and blah blah blah but by the time I do get pregnant it can be another year or so from now anyways. His reply was “can we talk in person tomorrow?” My heart dropped and was on hurt mode “what have I done? I know we TALKED about kids, but now I put pressure on him and now maybe he doesn’t want them just yet. Maybe he wants to wait til marriage? But what if we wait and it gets harder and harder for us to even conceive” so I told him forget it “in fear of rejection” I told him I no longer wanted to speak about it. Two days passed and we are finally together for a few short hours “he works overnights and by the time he’s leaving I’m coming in and when he’s coming in I’m pretty much leaving” so we are in the car, and we started to talk about the convo we had. He said just because I wanted to talk about it in person doesn’t mean I said no. He then followed those words with...I do want to start trying to conceive...I don’t think I’ve ever felt just happiness and relief. See it may be soon to others and especially my family, shoot even you who are reading and I may sound naive, but this man is the best thing that has walked into my life in over 10 years. I know it may sound silly but I have been through A LOT. Anywho I really don’t want to share this with anyone just yet because I already know how my family and friends will get. So I thought I’d let it all out here. I can not wait to shed some lbs and eat healthy and get my body ready to start ttc! I’m excited! I just hope when and if it does happen that I have the same support I did with my youngest.