My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years this month. About a year ago, I had found out that my boyfriend was posting ads on the m4m pages on Craigslist’s. And not just one.. But multiple. All stated that he was straight but looking for a hj/or bj. Some stated that he wanted to find a dl boyfriend.. When I brought it up, he became very defensive. Arguing that he is not gay & how could I ever believe that he was, that this was my trust issues. His excuse was “I know it is wrong, but my cousin & I like to mess with people on these pages”. At the same time I found a Plenty of Fish profile for him as well. I know how naive I sound when I say that I stayed with him. I told him that this would be the last time; that if he ever cheated or I found something like this again I would leave. I was so hurt but love him.. Since that incident, i randomly check the craigslist’s ad for anything he posted. I can tell by the way he writes when it is him. He has posted a few times under the m4m category since then. But the other day he had posted one for m4w. It hurt so much more than when it was for a man..

I suffer from very bad anxiety and conformation has never been something i was good at. I never say what I actually want too and am always afraid what the other will do. I haven’t brought it up with him because I told myself this will be the last time. I love him, I see a future with him. But I can’t keep acting like nothing is wrong. What do i do 😞