I recently found out I'm pregnant, it's supposed to be a happy time in my life, but over the last few months everything has been slowly turning to shit, and it isn't Making my pregnancy a happy enjoyment at all. My father served 20 yrs in the air force and retired last yr due to his Ptsd, he also has a major drinking problem and a few days ago he left my mom. My husband also has the same problems (alcoholic and ptsd), he has done nothing but lie to me about when he gets off work, or when he will be home he'll even go missing all night and turns his phone off. Ive had to go looking for him and bring him home screaming at me and covered in his own vomit. Whenever I confront him about it he doesn't care, he blames it all on me, and the drinking just gets worse and his friends also encourage it knowing he has these problems. (great friends right!) I get left at home an pushed to the side like I'm nothing, even if I ask to go out with him his friends sit there saying I'm a controlling bitch and If they were him they would either tell me to shut the fuck up, hit me, or just leave.

I've seen my mom go thru this for yrs and it's destroyed her and I don't wanna go down that road. My parents live back home in Tennessee and I'm still in Vegas so I'm alone with no family and it's starting to take a toll on me. I can't trust a word my husband says to me and when I do it just turns out to be the same shit.

I don't want to leave my husband but I'm really contemplating packing up and leaving, because this isn't the person I know and I don't like who he's becoming. I've tried getting him help, he says no, i've tried being understanding, giving him Space, crying, screaming, talking and I still get lied to and blamed for everything.

He isn't cheating other wise this post would be null and void, I don't Wanna see my husband go down the same path as my dad, but you can't help someone who does wanna help themselves. It's heart braking and it hurts to see the people you love destroy themselves. He did AA for 2 days and never went back he has excuses for everything, I was basically told this is him and I just need to get over it. I don't know what to do anymore, if I try to help I'm a bitch if I say nothing it's my fault. I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't.

Maybe leaving us the best thing.