Don’t even know if I’m actually having my period or not 🤷🏻‍♀️

Sad thing is, I don’t even know if I’m having a period. It’s been 115 days since I had a regular cycle that I don’t even know. Been bleeding brown discharge for over 25 days but more recently it’s actual blood and a decent amount the fill up the toilet with.. but my pad dosnt show evidence that it’s an actual period lol just straight up twisted I hate everything right now. Fuck everything.