Low self esteem cause of anxiety

I feel so fat. I feel like I’m not attractive anymore. My SO try’s to tell me constantly I’m pretty. That he finds me sexy. But I just feel so gross and fat 😭😭 my anxiety is so high and I constantly worry about everything. We’re also TTC and I constantly worried about when I do get pregnant and the baby is asleep during the night and so are we, and he or she rolls over and can’t roll back over and SIDS happens like I’m so panic about that all the time. I know I’m going to be that mom that’s up every 5 minutes to check to see their still breathing 😭😭

This is what I look like