When we are younger all we do is try not to get pregnant and it's not until we are settled and TTC that we realize how hard this all is. From BFP's to BFN's, late AF and inconclusive blood tests. I never realized how much anxiety comes from trying to conceive. I'm currently waiting to take another blood test after having a BFP, then bleeding and cramping, then an inconclusive blood test. I feel like I'm stuck between being gutted that I miscarried, to googling if I could still be pregnant and keeping faith. Honestly this is such a mind f**k sometimes and I feel like everyone else around me is announcing their pregnancies and uploading photos of their kids and here I am just trying to figure out if I'm pregnant or not.