Dont really need bashing or anything as my lifes already falling apart just need to put this out there and get it off my chest before i implode. So ive been with my husband two years the first year was on and off now its been like 15 months of us on we got married 6 months ago. In the begining he cheated a few weeks in to us being exclusive he cried apologized begged me not to leave so i stayed cuz i love him its always ate at me and hurt as to why he could do this but i moved past it we went on with life he ended uo moving home to set up a life for us and after 5 months we couldnt all go so he came back in thoes 5 months we fought alot he went to the bar every night lied about where he was who he was with spent all our money but insists he didnt cheat i dont know that i believe that. Well he came back to our state in feb we did ok at first things were happy we were who we always were so i l9ve our friends were envious of our relatio ship our passion our love our friendship and things started going down hill he became distant stressed pulling away started staying late alot at work communicating less with me the laughter became few and far between the fighting became worse now to the point its phisical just shoving once he his me cuz i hit him first wich was wrong but he said my son that he adopted wasnt his. Well the fightings gotten worse he left two weeks ago to a hotell for the night and when he asked y i dont trust him said cuz u fucked someone else and he said ya and im going to tonight to. Well our phones link to our tablets i found confirmation emails for signing up for a hook up site and found 4 hook up sites along with tuns of porn on his history when i brought it up he deniyed ever going on them and said if i wanted him to stay i had to trust him when he said he didnt go on them . I dony believe him i think he went on them i think he cheated i think hes still cheating he clears his phone wont let me touch his phone he works late alot goes in on his days off is so distant he doesnt kiss me unless i kiss him he doesnt hold me laugh with me look at me anymore i love him more then anything i do everything for himi clean i cook i do his clothes for work he sleeps in everyday we have sex everyday i bring in nearly 2000 in child support cuz he wanted me to stay home now he wants me to work so im lookibg for a job i could clean the house spotless but if theres one dish in the sink he flips that i do nothing i cant do right by him anymore i dont know what to do i dont want to leave cuz i love him but i want him to b happy and i dont think i do that anymore. I just dont know what to do anymore

♡broken hearted ♡